James Lock was reacting for the first time to ex-girlfriend Yazmin Oukhellou’s car accident that killed her former partner Jake McLean – and revealed he regretted “wiping out” her last message before the accident.
The 35-year-old reality star admitted he had blocked Yazmin’s number because contacting them had “strained” a current relationship, but insisted he wasn’t “cold”.
On Sunday’s episode of The Only Way Is Essex, James told co-star Jordan Brook that 28-year-old Yazmin was “lucky to be alive” after walking away from the blast with a broken arm while her ex Lover Jake was pronounced dead at the scene aged 33.
James told Jordan: “Dude to be honest I’m just shocked. I am shocked by what happened to Yaz.
“It’s crazy that I can’t get my head around it, to be honest. As far as I know, she’s a lucky girl just to be alive. She’s fine, she’s in the hospital and her family is there, that’s the main thing.
“It’s scary and puts everything in perspective. It makes you realize certain things… you know something, she texted me the other day and I hid it and then I blocked it.
“Even though we don’t work as a couple, we’ve always been there for each other. The only reason I blocked her is because I feel like she and I are putting a strain on our other relationships as we try to move on.
“When she texted it caused a problem, that’s why I blocked her, I wasn’t cold. I thought I was doing the right thing. I spoke to Junaid everyday and asked her if she was cute and stuff. She knows I asked about her.”
Jake tragically died in July after driving his car off a cliff in Bodrum, Turkey while Yazmin, a passenger, sustained injuries to his left arm.
The Essex businessman, who rose to fame while dating reality star Lauren Goodger, was buried last month – but Yazmin was not invited to the funeral.
Jake’s family is said to have disapproved of the couple’s relationship and believe the couple were arguing at the time of the crash.
Elsewhere in the episode, Amber Turner reflected on her broken friendship with Yazmin as she cried to boyfriend Dan Edgar over the sad news.
She said: “I feel like I haven’t really cried yet because it’s like I don’t want to get upset because I’m not really in the situation.
“I don’t want to get sad but I just feel like it just sucks because me and they weren’t in the best places but we were better. It’s just hard.’
Dan added: “It’s awful what happened but you have to try to think of the positives. Yaz is fine, lucky she escaped alive.’
Yazmin’s close friends and co-stars Dani Imbert, Harry Derbidge and Junaid Ahmed opened up about their feelings after escaping death in the car accident.
Harry said, “I think we’re all at a loss for words, aren’t we? I just keep thinking about how brave she must have been to get through it.”
Dani added: “Obviously with Yazmin having a serious accident we are all close to her and it’s a tough situation for all of us but I think Junaid it’s tough for you.”
Junaid sobbed, “No one understands. She’s more than just a best friend to me – she’s my sister. I can’t help her.”